Space Clearing

Today I worked on clearing my work space.  Having my whole life in one bedroom makes things a bit cluttered and messy.  I am one who covets the minimalist lifestyle but on the other hand I am an artist.  I don't know if the two can exist together and if so I'd love to know how you do it.  Seriously!

I do have another bedroom up here that is full of my kid's crap, two beds, a sofa etc.  I really would like to get it either cleaned out or at least organized.  I am a lousy housekeeper, simple as that.  I am the type who feels it isn't my place to take care of someone else's stuff.  You know, it is so simple.  You clean up after yourself and I will clean up after myself.  Unfortunately this isn't how reality works and I need to quit thinking this way and just take care of it myself.   I get tired of asking only to get lip service then I get to be the nag and bitch.  Some people's ideas of I'll get to it means never.

I get to clean up after everyone and it is a real problem because I feel I have better things to do with my time.  But the universe says I need to get off my unicorn and deal.

I want this to be a positive blog and I can see already I am complaining.  Of course that is one of the reasons for doing the cards.  To find out WHY this bothers me so much and WHY I feel so helpless and WHY I feel I need to control my environment etc.

I went to a therapist for awhile and she said I had high morals, I shouldn't have gotten married as I am a free spirit, and I can't see the forest for the trees.  She said take all this anger and make art.  I thought who in hell would want to look at that sort of art?  I have a lot of anger.  A lot.  I hate to waste pricy art supplies with my anger.  I like pretty things.  Funny things.  

Well, now I realize that isn't really me.  My funny art is really a deep source of anger and loathing and sarcasm with negative energy.  Self hatred.  My therapist was right.  I need to make art.  And Soul Collage is something I can make without a lot of product waste and I can also keep it private unlike a 3' painting.

And so it begins...