And We Begin

Today my Soul Collage Evolving book and two CDs came that I need to study and work with if I decide to go to the workshop next year.  They also included some cards and sleeves to work with.  In the meantime I purchased a batch of proper sized cards off eBay and they also arrived today.  So I guess I am set.

I've been decluttering my house and that is a major undertaking.  The best part is I've finding tons of old magazines and stuff that I will be using for Soul Collage.  

I'm also finding a ton of other stuff.  I don't throw anything away and that has to stop.  A lot of (guilt) trips down memory lane.  I am surprised on the emotions some things I've saved for years and years due to sentimentality bring up.  A lot of it is guilt or not good feelings.  So why do I save them?  If they only bring me down why do I keep them?

Yesterday I threw out two model horses.  That is something I never thought I would do.  Ever.  One was my first communion gift.  Yes, that is how old she was.  She was broken and I repainted her with that horrible Testors model paint which ruined her.  You can't take that stuff off.  She's been shuffled around for 40+ years.   It was time for her to retire to the great plastic cloud in the sky.  So she and another one are now in a bag in the dumpster.  

I feel guilty.  Guilty that I don't "love" her enough.  How stupid is that?  I think I have issues.