Brain Dump

Yesterday I took a notebook I had and did a brain dump.  The book "The Artist's Way" recommends doing what is called Morning Pages where the first thing you do is get up and write three pages longhand in a notebook.  So I started that again.  It has been over 2 years since I have done it and I am sure I wasn't laying it all out on the line as I always want to come across "nice".

Wow what a crock.  I'm nice on the outside.  I seem like I have my shit together on the outside but on the inside I am a tragic mess of anxiety, fear, anger, hostility and just plain numbness.  And dare I say, hatred.

So I got bold and now have six pages written.  They are downright ugly but it is how I feel!  If I don't let it out it is going to kill me.  I hope that releasing the valve will help me to see the bigger picture and to find some peace.

I have come up with my first Soul Card idea.  It actually was something I put together in an art journal but I think rather than pasting it in there I will try and put it on a card.  I had cut out the picture over a month ago and didn't really know what to do with it.  But this morning it's message hit me and as soon as it is done I will share it with you.

Note to Self:  Create a framing mat.